…The guy I love asked me for my keys back just two days ago. I am heart broken. Sadly, he’s acquired an addiction in the last several months, and I have been unable to stop nagging him about it. (For good reason, I know, but nagging is a relationship killer). I’m so hurt, and I am so worried about him, but he doesn’t see yet that he has a problem. To him, he’s just doing what he wants, having fun.
We’d been planning for the future, and he was closer and more in love with me than he ever has been with anyone, ever. I’m sad for me, but I am also sad for him, and what he’s losing. I regret nagging him- I know now that that never helps, just drives people away.
I guess my issue now is The Hope. We’ve broken up and gotten back together before, because he realizes he misses, loves, and can’t live without me. (If he sounds immature, it’s because in relationships, he is, but he’s wonderful, and treats me extremely well, other than occasionally freaking out, and breaking up with me.) I don’t know what I need to hear…… I really love the bugger- he’s my best friend. Any words are appreciated- I hurt so much right now.
I wrote him a letter apologizing g for the constant nagging and sideways remarks in front of his friends, but I haven’t sent it, or anything else.